I needed to leave
In order to return
With the eyes
Of a child again
~ The Beautiful Game ~
I needed to leave
In order to return
With the eyes
Of a child again
~ The Beautiful Game ~
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Forever
Language
Will fail
To articulate
Convey
Explain
Portray
Even close to adequately
The human condition and experience
Essentially writing is a worthless exercise
But we must try
We must try
~ On Writing ~
Making mistakes centres around the premise
That one believes in mistakes in the first place
There are no mistakes
And there are no "good mistakes"
Despite what some teachers may say
Stupid teachers say things like that
Perhaps with good intentions
Experimentation is all there is
Good, bad, whatever...
Just give it a go
Then assess
See where you are at
Try, try, try again
~ On Mistakes ~
Reevaluate everything you've ever known, been taught or told.
Learn everything all over again from the start but this time faster, having experienced everything the world has already thrown at you. Learning is your most valuable asset. Your biggest investment. Your greatest talent. One you have full access to at any place or time.
In all likelihood, you have lost touch with learning. But the beauty of something lost is that it only waits to be found again. Sitting dormant within all human beings is an insane capacity for learning. And for most of you, this invaluable skill, a reservoir of untapped learning potential sits still waiting to be released. Let the water run.
The answer to accessing this untapped power? I have no answers. But perhaps a clue... yes, perhaps a clue will do.
Get curious again. Get really curious. About something. Anything will do. Preferably something you enjoy, inherently, just for the pure sake of it. Something that all of your life has been calling out to you, continually coming back to you, bothering you, an itch, that has followed you to every corner of the world. No matter where you go, it’s irritatingly waiting. Scratch it.
Perhaps it is a craft, like writing, painting, knitting, who knows what it is, anything. Allow yourself to fall in love with it, again if necessary. It's very likely you already know exactly what it is. You've known since a kid. If not, take a quick look at your hobbies. These favourite things you've disguised as past times, that if you could, you would do all the fucking time. Aim at mastery.
Then relearn what learning looks and feels like real fast. You will become addicted to it. Learning.
And then, only then, a tiny speck of light will show the way for you. Illuminating a path wide enough for you, just you, and your two feet only, moving one stride at a time. At first slowly, as a trickle. Then before you know it, flowing, as if a dam high up river has broken. You will know it when this happens because the world will open itself up for you. A massive gorge in the earth you won’t be able to ignore. And you, yes beautiful you, running through it. A great river, wild, brimming full of power, strength, grace, with great wisdom and wonder in its' waters.
~ A Great River You Are ~
What do I see?
I see,
So many young men and women dependent on others in order to get things done.
A generation of kids in need of permission slips in order to get after it.
A prescription script, do this, do that, do not do that, existence.
So… Show me,
Show me, the one who goes without being told, where.
Who does just because.
Who runs all out just for fun.
Who does not give a fuck.
Who is not afraid to look dumb.
The one who depends upon no one.
~ Depend Upon No One ~
There is no reason for rushing ever
Just as the river never does
Because despite what is said
The river just flows
Sometimes slow and languid
Through long smooth stretches
And at others quick or fast
As a riffle or rapid
But the river does not rush
And the water is never in a hurry to get somewhere
It is not already
~ The Rushing River ~
How often I have heard from some young person, full of zest and wonder, yearning for the world, an unmistakable enthusiasm in their eyes, the innocent and timeless words "I'm searching for my self." And I seeing something, perhaps a reflection of my former self cannot help but smile and sigh.
Of course, having known exactly how it felt to have once upon a time been young and full of zest and wonder, yearning for the world with that unmistakable light shining in my eyes. But I, I have learned that a person can run around the world 10 times over in search of something that all along rested in the palms of his or her hands.
You see, we have been told, taught to believe, that somewhere out there a higher self, the best version of ourselves, waits to be found and that we will encounter it, most likely in some discrete place, often in nature, a far away mountain top, a secret waterfall or perhaps within the walls of some old cemetery or derelict building graffitied in words of peace and harmony. So hastily, enthusiastically, we go searching for it.
But it is not. There is not such a self, or place, or some natural sanctuary where it awaits our arrival. And as pretty or nice as it sounds, there simply is not. And despite how much I do love mountain tops and secret waterfalls and derelict tattooed abandoned buildings, these places are much more conducive for losing one's self than pursuing this thing that one already knows intimately and holds in the palms of his or her hands.
So I, I have abandoned the search having learned there is another space. A space where one loses sense of time and place, where one forgets everything all together. Because yes, yes, I have been there and perhaps you have too.
So I have decided to go there as often as able, that empty space somewhere between the white blank page and the end of my pen. Where imagination and creation have a chance to blend. And I, I lost, forget myself and everything I am or have ever pretended to be. Knowing now that I do not need to run anywhere but here.
~ Abandoning The Search ~
I’ve always said
That the leaving
Depends upon
The coming back again
And
Oh how good it feels
To return
When one has been gone for
So long
~ On Leaving And Coming Back ~
Somewhere along the way, I stopped playing the game. Continuing in the name of strengthening an identity I spent years building. Constantly reinforcing in the name of nothing more than looking good, the potential of fame and glory and being able to say to someone, often a complete stranger, in order to impress, “I, I am a professional athlete.”
It was all in vain and had nothing at all to do with the game itself. The game I began playing as an eight year old for fun, with my friends, for the sheer sake of it, done for nothing else aside from losing oneself in the total engagement of it all. And somewhere along they way, I simply forgot what it felt like to play. What it meant. What the game meant.
But, I do believe we can return to the game again, somewhat resembling the children we began as. The return, the coming back, of course, depends upon the having left. Fortunately or unfortunately, whatever, I had to leave the game in order to come back again. In order to remember how it felt. How it felt, to be eight years old again, playing, pretending, imagining, seeing the game through the eye’s of a kid, for what it was - a game. Something to be played. Something to be kept at arms length. Something not to be used for the sake of my own name, that perhaps once upon a time, a few complete strangers knew, but hadn’t a clue in the world as to who I really was or am, or even cared at all.
We must relearn what it feels like to play, that is if one is interested in such a thing. While we are still able. While we still can. While we still have the chance. Because one day, perhaps sooner than one expects, there will be no chance at coming back, there will be no coming back, only the having left.
~ On Relearning How To Play ~
I ran around the world
In search of a girl
But
It was she
Who found me
When at my most still
~ On Running ~
There is nothing wrong with you
Just as
There is nothing right
Either
You see
Wrong depends on right
As does left
We all want direction
But let me ask you this
Which is better
Direction or directionless?
There is no point in trying to make sense
Of all this senselessness
All there is
Is experience
Begin
Quit
Fall
Rise
Again
Experiment
~ There Is Nothing Wrong With You ~
Total immersion
Is what you
Should be searching for
As a surfer
Scours the shores
To the ends of the earth
Looking out for
The perfect wave
~ Submersion ~
To become
A one and only
You must be willing
To go
Where no other
Has gone before you
Where there is no one
To show you the way
~ 1 and Only ~
Wrong depends on right
And so does left
There is no correct method
No East
No West
No way of arrival
All roads lead to nowhere
In the end
~ Roads ~
It was more of a feeling
Than anything
A sense that
This was it
A perfect fit
~ New Shoes and You ~
I'm searching for clues as to how I've come to be this old man
I see in the mirror
Life has written itself upon my hands and face and feet
They have all grappled long with the clock
And although weathered
They have stood the test of time
And while I may appear an old man to you
I have yet to discover any clues hiding inside
Telling me so
Just hints
Words if you will
On these hands and this face and these feet
That life has scrawled across them
From year to year
A great poem I have become
And if you peer behind these eyes inside you will find
A child
Young
Wild
Full of wonder
Curious
As to how I've come to know these hands and face and feet of an old man
With eyes that shine forth
From a place within
Where a child lives still young and more full of wonder
Than ever before
~ Old Man ~
You showed us
What the human being was
Capable of
Lifting the bar up
Above
Setting a standard
Higher than
I could have ever
Imagined
~ On Coaching ~
Poems do not come from me
As much as they do
To me
And through me
As if they knew themselves
Way before being introduced to me
Sort of like
When two people meet for the first time
Swearing they've known each other
All along
~ Us ~
And then
All of the noise
Was gone
And for once
I could hear
The birds song
Had they been
Singing all along?
~ Bird Song ~